My Fair City

Impressionistic, drunken photos taken on NYE from a Soho rooftop. Deconstructed Empire State Building and the new World Trade Center (or whatever they're calling it these days) being built...

I'm not always so nice

So once in a while, usually when I come home alone and little drunk and feeling lonely, I look up my ex boyfriend's page on facebook. I know, not a good idea. Especially since he just got married. He was the one I wrote about a couple years ago on here. The Brazilian guy. So sweet and sexy and...crap, it took me forever to get over him! Actually, I broke up with him because after a year together it didn't seem like it was going anywhere. Well anyway, he's married now. Apparently, he's not going back to Brazil, which was a big issue with us because he kept vacillating about that. And he's married to this american girl. And, apparently they are sooooooooooooooo in love. Ick ick ick.........................
I am a total masochist, I know. They keep posting things like 'Loveeeeeeeeeee you soooo much' on facebook for all to see. He puts up pictures of her and labels them 'Cute'. She post pictures of him at the gym. Her family posts about him and how much they love him, his family posts about her and how much they love her and how beautiful she is (OK I'm being catty here - but she's cute, she's definitely not a model), blah blah. All this in two languages - English and Portuguese, no less.
I know I am being a jealous jerk but all these public displays of affection seem a bit staged and over-the-top. Even though I know its NONE OF MY BUSINESS. But I can't help being a bit nauseated and wishing all the love would just dissipate a little perhaps, if not wither away entirely. I'm a horrible person, I know. Ugh. Can anyone relate?